MAKING KIN: A RETROSPECTIVE
from Issue #4 and Issue #5

Sea lions peek their heads up
like periscopes to stare
at the bipedals corrupting
the rocky shore. Each time
the waves sweep the blue black
pebbles and roll back into themselves
the stones applaud the effort
it must take to be the tide.

Atop the fisted cliff jutting from the shallows
perch a thousand Murres and beyond them
a thousand more who will never know
the prison of a cage or a too-small wage
or the death that awaits them
beyond their knowing.
They understand the sea, the cycles of the sun,
the threat of eagles stealing their young,
the cacophony of seagulls
who catch their unhatched progeny
and return each day for more
as if this is what they live for.

We make words for everything,
name every species we find,
but there’s no word for the distance
between the clumsy penguin-like birds’ desire
to nest in the crags,
the long-necked Cormorants’ skill
for fishing the bay,
the sea lions’ bellies buoying
on the water,
and my urge to pitch into their world
and unmake myself.

You are not alive
as I am alive
but it seems every minute
you are
climbing for the first time
out of your bed
in the kitchen window
and provoking the others
to do the same

The morning before you broke
ground I was worried
the soil would be too much
for you to overcome

Now I follow
my grandmother’s practice
stand close and whisper
encouragement to your leaves
while you turn closer each second
to the light

You are alive in a way
I am not alive
so I sing to you

On a towel she lay unshaken
but uncalm from my perspective
she breathed a sigh, looked
from the table toward the walls, pale
and unmoving, she was a stone
or so I wanted her to be, stoic
and free from my misery, the veterinarian’s
needle touched her leg, pointed
to the place it would enter and stop
her heart, I held her head unnecessarily
still, she had no intention
of running and couldn’t know the darkness
as I imagined it coming, solid
and impassible, I wanted to see light in her
I wanted a final flinch from her muscles’
small slack ropes, her eyes did not close finally
but couldn’t see, the room was the same, cold table without
a place to go after the body has given up
her hair, black and white, fell out and came home with me
to the bed where I lay with the orange tabby
who licked the tips of my fingers
as if there exists a scent for sorrow, as if hungry.

“Painting Elephants”
David Andersen
28x28, Mixed media on canvas

She wants to paint the horizon, the way it bends
at the edges, the way it becomes
an unreachable branch where light meets the river.
When the man dips her brush in the paint,
she wants it to be black like distant water.
She wants to show how she bathed her baby
under the yellow sun. The man points his finger
at the blank canvas and the people
whisper What will she paint? How
does her trunk move so precisely?
She wants to choose her own colors, to sweep
the brush in soft lines that remind her
of her mother, the trail they took each year
following the water, the leaves, like paint strokes,
but the brush makes what it always makes:
three purples flowers with stems and green leaves
she has never seen