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Dark Matter: Women Witnessing - December, 2015 Issue #3 - EXTINCTION / DEVOTION






newly found mother by my land and her trees? The idea seemed credible at the time and I 
loving 


attached myself to its hope like a barnacle.




Oddly, the dream of the two landscapes stayed vivid and clear often surfacing in my mind. But I was 


troubled by the apprehension that flowed through me in its wake. I continued to comfort myself with the 



thought that I could interrupt tree destruction by loving my land, and by honoring all trees.




It wasn’t until after spending prolonged periods at my camp, “elf house,” that I began to have strange 


unsettling repetitive dreams about ‘my’ land and our future together. Most of these dreams involved 



boundary violations. Trees were being cut on the back boundary of my property, thugs on machines 


also entered from behind my camp. Aggressive neighbors built houses around me and they had guns. 


These neighbors disliked me and wished me harm.





I felt fear, confusion, and dismay as I awakened from these dreams wondering what they could possibly 


mean. This land and I were wed to one another; each bird, tree, flower and bush was sacred to me. I 


experienced joy and gratitude on a daily basis. Why such dark and ominous dreams?





A few years passed before I first started to hear the whining sound of a chainsaw in the distance on a 


regular basis. Most folks around here including myself heat with wood, so early in the fall whenever I 


walked up the hill to the road I could hear my neighbors saw their wood for the coming winter, but 


thankfully these sounds were drowned out around my camp by rushing water and the surrounding 


forest. When the sound of the chainsaw first penetrated my little patch of wilderness I felt invaded by 



something sinister. Just as disturbing was the way my body responded to the high - pitched chainsaw 


whine: by going on high alert until the wail ceased for the day. I also experienced a peculiar buzzing 


throughout my body. I was unable to calm myself.












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