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Dark Matter: Women Witnessing - December, 2015 Issue #3 - EXTINCTION / DEVOTION
Lily:
Oh, yes. Well, not only the first time. I mean, who is prepared to walk into darkness? There is unknown.
You don't know what's lurking there. One doesn't know whether one has the capacity to deal with the
unknown. That unknown is very scary. And then every time -- for example, in Rwanda, I could never
imagine that I would go to a place that's not even on my agenda? And then I would build a genocide
memorial. That is totally frightening. Even when I think about it now, I get scared because when you do
that, you touch people's bones. And the bone represents the most grieved part of the national psyche.
And if I do anything wrong, then I really become -- I don't know how to reconcile to that deep grief. Yet
when we are guided by our heart, when life beckons us, and when we are sensitive to the inner voice,
and when we are brave enough to follow life's calling, then wonders happen. Things unfold.
And then you have guardian angels. When you're lost, there are birds talking to you. There are animals
pointing directions. There are people along the way helping us. We just have to be brave enough to
listen to our heart, which has that wisdom, intuition, that evolved through millions of years. Nature's
evolution. A lot of time we don't pay attention. We lose touch with that.
And so it is through not only learned skills, knowledge and everything, but also listening to the
heartbeat of our inner voices. That comes from light, from the depths of being itself.
Caroline:
And that takes us to the heart of everything. When I first heard you at the Bioneers Conference, you
said you were daunted. And then you said there was a deep voice inside you that said, "But if you don't
do this thing, the most important part of you will die." So you said you made yourself frightened of being
a coward.
Lily:
Yes. Well, fear, in a way, is our friend. Like life causes us to move forward. And if we're always in our
comfort zone, we will be like in a cocoon. But when we break the comfort zone, we always get scared.
But then in the transformation from cocoon to butterfly... a world of wonder and revelation.
It's important we not only heal others. We must heal the wound inside. Otherwise, it festers. And then it
expresses that hurt and wound and pain through the things we touch and things we do. And so a
person who journeys, a spiritual journey, a life journey is both internal and external simultaneously.
That demands our attention.
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